“it’s not your fault, but i wish it was.”
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“it’s not your fault, but i wish it was.”
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“it’s not your fault, but i wish it was.”

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1

This Feeling Will Pass

Take Care

2:04
2

loser monologue

sign crushes motorist

2:56
3

thing about a boy

Oyatan, Manta

2:29
4

The Knife

Dead Calm

2:07
5

Manifesto

sign crushes motorist

2:52
6

How To Never Stop Being Sad

dandelion hands

2:10
7

like blood from a stone

Old Gray

4:24
8

Self Reflection

Miles Carter

1:31
9

Teach Me How To Self Destruct

Old Gray

1:06
10

If I Stare At the Clock Long Enough, Will I Have the Time to Tell You Everything?

dandelion hands

4:14
11

Shock videos

Ispentsixhourswatchingshockvideosyesterday

3:17
12

Sleep Patterns

Merchant Ships

3:17
13

winter (poem)

postcard nowhere

2:25
14

as that kid flew...

Argo Nuff

1:36
15

growth

Intro to misery

2:16
16

a queue of questions

Pierce Yanci, Intro to misery

2:17
17

Werewolf Costume

Apistat Commander

4:07
18

Words

Every Dog Has Its Day

1:38
19

Jerk

Drivesafe

2:12
20

Safe In Your Skin - Interlude

Drivesafe

1:20
21

Nothing Happened At All

Take Care

2:29
22

act 1

lonely girls club

1:59
23

4th of april

Russian police officer

2:47
24

i had a sudden urge to kill myself the other day

desperatecreature

3:19
25

i threw a rock off an overpass and killed a guy

sign crushes motorist

2:25
26

repressed

i don't like mirrors

1:31
27

Future

bloody saliva

0:57
28

When Is It Over

bloody saliva

3:12
29

missed call

Oyatan, Coffee Stain

1:46
30

Ache

Coffee Stain

2:11
31

I Thought We Were...

Wideview

2:23
32

monster

dissonance

3:00
33

he loves to hurt (himself)

dissonance

2:24
34

your arms were my home

desperatecreature

1:30
35

you and me

i stared at your pictures for hours, Oyatan

1:34
36

We accept the love we think we deserve

i stared at your pictures for hours

1:45
37

hopeless (interlude)

Oyatan

1:08
38

I wanna stop

i stared at your pictures for hours

1:27
39

scars

Dolent, i stared at your pictures for hours

2:30
40

Anguish

Coffee Stain, RuinMist

2:51
41

my melanchole reprise

the 7 group theory

2:01
42

everything ive ever wanted

in summer of 2019 i dreamed of everything i have now and couldnt be more dissapointed

1:03
43

Kevin's Interlude

Take Care

0:37
44

interlude

dear june

1:21
45

ladybug interlude

June Henry

0:58
46

somewhere, in a dream

postcard nowhere

4:52
47

i tried to kill myself two days ago and no one noticed

wings for myself

3:21
48

never healing wound

wings for myself

3:21
49

i deserve every bad thing that happens

desperatecreature

2:08
50

coward little kid

desperatecreature

2:12
51

Dad Tears

Bird Mutant

2:23
52

Growing (1)

Bird Mutant

2:21
53

here for you

aftergleam, Oyatan

3:37
54

hold

aftergleam

4:53
55

regret

aftergleam

2:30
56

i cant think of a name for this one

empty parking lot

2:03
57

Suicide Cleanup

Birth Day

2:21
58

im going to do it

miserable teens club

5:27
59

I'm So Sorry

sign crushes motorist

3:22
60

Think Of Me Once In A While, Take Care

Take Care

1:43
61

living in the past

ativansocial

2:02
62

there are 300 versions of me and each of them are disappointed - demo

i stared at your pictures for hours

1:15
63

sorry mom - demo

i stared at your pictures for hours

1:05
64

i found all the unsent letters you kept under the floorboards

marin county lighthouse keeper

1:08
65

i don't wanna die alone

i stared at your pictures for hours

1:27
66

37°46'15.3"N 123°06'29.0"W

marin county lighthouse keeper

1:30
67

summer bores me

tomi

2:27
68

we drift apart as i lose signal and crash into the moon

Oyatan

2:19
69

dreams

mthu

2:35
70

Care

the apology club

3:50
71

2 Chord Song (Life)

ericslake

1:33
72

My brain is trying to kill me

Dolent

2:40
73

losercore/retrogress or get real

boccmet

2:10
74

if i could do it all over again

Every Dog Has Its Day

1:28
75

Sorry

the apology club

1:41
76

Ruined

Every Dog Has Its Day

1:20
77

the lonesome sailor and his sailboat in the distant and endless pacific

marin county lighthouse keeper

1:52
78

theres this girl

sign crushes motorist

4:57
79

My Friends Don't Know (I Know They Hate Me)

dandelion hands

2:22
80

i miss your warm hands

i don't like mirrors

2:11
81

perks of being a wallfl

marin county lighthouse keeper

1:43
82

i love you most 1

monkey experiment

1:08
83

i hate summer

Intro to misery

3:34
84

i just want to hold her

sign crushes motorist

3:52
85

you left me on suicide sunday

thenian

2:36
86

i was all over her

salvia palth

2:41
87

i had a sudden urge to kill myself the other day

desperatecreature

3:19
88

it's getting bad again

Ethan Jewell

3:16
89

we will all become stardust

Two Seats Are Vacant

4:10
90

if you love me, please check "yes" next to the skull carved in my desk

hurts worse

2:50
91

thx

monkey experiment

1:04
92

Public Suicide

the apology club

2:57
93

erase us

hurts worse

2:20
94

if i smashed my head through your windshield, would you notice me then?

hurts worse

2:49
95

Autopilot (Intro)

A-Wall

1:15
96

i was all over her

salvia palth

2:41
97

watch me

giving a butterfly a skeleton

1:56
98

All I Need Is To Feel Like Someone Could Love Me

Take Care

2:15
99

a letter for zach

Old Gray

2:04
100

away

wings for myself

2:19
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